Monday, June 17, 2013

Brokeness and Light


    All the stuff in my life is broken or in the process of breaking.  I know this theoretically means that these things were at one time whole.  I'm not sure. All I know is that I feel like I'm always on the fixing end. Maybe it's because I try to be frugal and own a lot of old things, but I get discouraged trying to keep up in this broken world.  Or maybe it's because kittens are rescued at my house and then they reproduce.  OK, that's just a side issue that's compounding things.

    I bought a hot tub from a friend that I can't get running. I was about to replace the plug when my husband pulled in with a replacement outdoor heater that had stopped working after two uses, and now needed assembled...again. Meanwhile, my hot tub fix didn't work. In discouragement I set down my screwdriver and walked to the river toward the sunset.

    Somehow when little things like this bother me I am reminded of the bigger things that are broken.  Relationships, and hearts, trust, and dreams, and I have to guard against self implosion. 

    But thank God, the beauty of the sun, a light that we cannot extinguish reminded me that not everything is completely broken.  There is hope and warmth, literal light in the darkness. And of course this too is a small thing that reminds me of a bigger thing - God's eternal hope, redemption, and love that absolutely cannot be extinguished. I can lay my head on my pillow and welcome sweet dreams on this note.